Wide awake at 4 a.m. staring at the high desert clear night sky illuminated with stars. And out of nowhere I'm flooded with painful childhood memories. Feelings of humiliation, of being overlooked, ignored and alone are overwhelming. There are no adults in these memories. There's no one to blame for my interpretation of these rather … Continue reading Not Good Enough
Belief systems
Meaning and Good News
There is no meaning-to my life-to my small life, my small self. The meaning of life, any life, all of life, is life itself. When I die, I die. Therefore, let me live for today. How shall I live? Simply. So others may live. So that life may continue-long after I’m gone. Life! What is … Continue reading Meaning and Good News
Denial to Acceptance and Everything In Between
I notice my anxiety rise as I watch the results of our presidential election numbers come in. I sip on my wine. PA shows Hillary far ahead at 10:30 last evening, I breathe easier. Chris not so much. I'm troubled by how close the numbers are in so many other states. But there are always … Continue reading Denial to Acceptance and Everything In Between
Heading into the Fog
With each step, our next step is revealed. We have no idea where this path will lead us, or what we'll see when we reach the top. We know we're climbing. We feel the heaviness in our legs and the need to breathe deeper and faster. We feel the acceleration of our hearts. Shrouded in … Continue reading Heading into the Fog
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