Wide awake at 4 a.m. staring at the high desert clear night sky illuminated with stars. And out of nowhere I'm flooded with painful childhood memories. Feelings of humiliation, of being overlooked, ignored and alone are overwhelming. There are no adults in these memories. There's no one to blame for my interpretation of these rather … Continue reading Not Good Enough
Letting go
Meaning and Good News
There is no meaning-to my life-to my small life, my small self. The meaning of life, any life, all of life, is life itself. When I die, I die. Therefore, let me live for today. How shall I live? Simply. So others may live. So that life may continue-long after I’m gone. Life! What is … Continue reading Meaning and Good News
Sweet Reunion
I let out a small shriek when someone grabs me from behind at the Las Vegas baggage claim. Imagine my delight at seeing my sweetie after a whole month. He goes the extra mile for me by coming in to see me when it would have been so much easier for him to wait in … Continue reading Sweet Reunion
What About Our Stuff
Chris and I give ourselves two weeks to get our house organized and prepared to be vacated for about 4 months prior to our tenants moving in. What were we thinking! As previously mentioned in Quittin’ Day I allowed my job to leave me little time for anything else in my life, and what little … Continue reading What About Our Stuff
Quittin’ Day
Today is quittin' day, 2nd month of this leap year. My last day of work. On my drive home I notice a sort of release in my entire being, a letting go.No real thoughts attached, just a sense of relief. Chains being broken. Energy being restored. By the time I get home, I feel elated, … Continue reading Quittin’ Day
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